Like how you don't care anymore. You've lost your motivation to do anything you want.

Your mind is set on too many things that you are confused about your feelings, and you can't explain how you feel either.The feeling of emptiness, and feeling that barely anyone is there for you. Feeling no one understands you anymore. And it seems like there is nothing to look forward anymore.

 I've tried so many times just to push myself up. It's like I'm in a edge of the cliff trying to save myself. I've done many things just to make everyone happy. I make them happy but deep inside I am not the way they saw me. 

Trust me, there are times that I cried myself to sleep. I always cry when I can't carry it anymore. I cry because I can't do something to change the way. I feel like I'd lost in a battle which I didn't join. 

I always feel like I want to give up. I thought that giving up was the way I can lift myself to a better life or way. Unfortunately, NOT. 

Breathe. Inhale. Exhale. Think.

 ALWAYS think GIVING UP is not a way. Please. Don't make your self just comfortable. God wants us to live our life with happiness and striving hard for the best.

"We don't really know ourselves, what we really like and what we want." - Walt Disney

Love,

Antoinette